Hi hello it has been awhile, my friends…
Life has been overwhelming lately, to say the least. Work has been demanding, I’ve been trying to buy (and eventually succeeded in buying!) a house, my diet and exercise routine is shit, dating is draining, blah blah blah.
All that to say: I’ve completely neglected da blog and of that I am ashamed.
Frankly, I haven’t been feeling very inspired these past couple months.
Somewhere along the way my motivation changed from “having fun” to “seeking attention.” And, while I will be the first to defend that wanting to be seen is human, attention-seeking is not a good motivation for anything.
Full stop.
I started this blog with zero expectations. I love horror movies. I love writing. I love designing shitty graphics in photoshop that make me giggle. I love being jolted awake at 4am with inspiration after mulling over an idea for weeks.
I want to get back to that.
That’s the whole fucking point.
But I cannot deny that something very unexpected happened along the way as I’ve been pushing myself out of my comfort zone and seeking more attention.
I’ve met amazing new people. Shot the shit with some of my favorite directors. Deepened and rekindled connections with friends/acquaintances over a shared obsession with the deranged. Attended and even wrote coverage for a film festival.
I’m a registered business for crying out loud!!!
All of that is a privilege. All of that requires effort. And none of that could have happened without this silly little blog o’ mine.
I’m going back to writing and photoshop. I may dabble in more video content in the future, but it doesn’t excite me the way writing and design do. I don’t care if my website is “not the most engaging.” I’m doing this cause I fuckin’ like it.
When the fun stops, so does the blog.
So even if discipline is not my strong suit… I am dedicated to continuing to create and share my passion with all of you. And in return, all I ask is that you continue to share your passion with me and inspire me the way y’all already do.
But, most importantly…
I just wanna scream
and smile
and laugh
with all of you ❤️
Love you all. Thanks for reading.
-the big “C”
